So yesterday I ended up around 1700'ish calories for the day. After the bacon/gouda I was kind of like eh - maybe I do need to eat more. You know, because justifying it makes it all better.
This morning I had gained another pound. An extra couple hundred calories = 1 pound?! What the heck math?
I'm trying to take it in stride to tell myself that my body is just readjusting - this will all come out in the wash and that things are ok. This is a journey. There will be ups and downs. Look at the big picture. But that only lasts for a few seconds or so.
All day long I've been
I ate 1/2 my 10 a.m. snack at 8:15 (1/4 cup raw almonds). The other half around 9:30 (low fat string cheese). Lunch at 11 (grilled chicken breast and 1/2 cup black beans with salsa). And then I left the office to run errands. At that point I knew I wasn't going to stay strong anymore. I took the route that would put me close to a McD's.
First, the song on the radio went something like, "Baby, don't go."
Shut up radio. I just want a shake or ice-cream or something else that's bad for me.
Pulled into the McD's. Had somewhat of a reality moment when I saw that everything I wanted was over 500 calories. But the McFlury snack size was a mere 340. So I ordered it. Turns out they were out of ice-cream.
|Dikembe Mutombo is apparently my guardian diet angel.|
I left the drive-through with nothing and ran my errands. At the next stop I looked at my emails on my phone and this was sitting there in my in-box:
|Link to article|
Dammit Jillian, I just want some ice-cream too!
So in the end I stopped by Starbucks, got a venti, iced green tea with no sugar. The gal taking the order asked if I wanted anything else and I sighed and sadly said no...
And this is how I ended my day and all was great...
|Green tea and blueberries|
Nope, not going to show the two snack sized Skittle packs that were also a part of this afternoon's snack or mention it's only 3:03 p.m. and so there's still a lot of day to get through... Just pretend that all is well and I'll wake up tomorrow 4 lbs lighter.
Why have these past couple of weeks been so hard? I'm just going to walk tonight. My legs needed a rest day. I'll run, swim, and do some more weights this weekend. I'm going to change my calorie intake to account for 1200 net calories for a couple of weeks. This is supposed to mean a 2 lb loss each week. The trick will be to not just add sugar or carb calories to this total. However, I may see some additional gains as my body readjusts because I really think I have forced it into "holding on" to its calories. Anyway, if that doesn't work I'll go back or change my plan again. So bear with me as I complain about the scale for a bit longer.