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Friday, October 30, 2015

Deep Thoughts

  • I have solid plans for Friday night which include margaritas, chips, and salsa. 
  • No weight will be lost this week.
  • Already sore from today's workout with the personal trainer.
  • Saturday will be my rest day.

Thursday, October 29, 2015

Like a Sir

They put up some pictures from the Run for Your Life 5k. These aren't copyrighted or for sale so I feel free to share them here.

This was the first one I saw - me at the starting line (pink shirt, neon yellow visor). The first thing I thought was that my face reminded me of this meme.

That guy in the blue hat in front of me taunted me for the entire run. He was doing a run/walk thing and I had finally caught up and passed him but he beat me at the end - by a lot. See, I'm way in the background....

Here I am right before the 1 mile marker. The first mile was the hardest. I should probably warm up more before 5k's but I can never convince myself to spend the energy doing a warm up run.

The lady in the yellowish shirt and leggings also stuck by me for most of the run. I had just passed her at the point of the picture above and managed to stay in front but not by much.

Anyway, this week is going well. The candy dish is winning a bit more but nothing ridiculous. And the exercise is going well.

But will she survive the weekend? Only the shadow knows...

Monday, October 26, 2015

Weekly Results (10/19-10/25)


  • Monday: Spin
  • Tuesday: short run and short work out video
  • Wednesday: 3 mile run/walk
  • Thursday: Personal trainer
  • Friday: Rest day
  • Saturday: Zumba
  • Sunday: 5k (which I almost forgot about even though it was just yesterday...)
Beautiful until the Friday BBQ. Downhill for the rest of Friday and Saturday. Not great but "ok" on Sunday.

Starting again today.

Weight Loss:
Haven't checked the weekend's potential gains but as mentioned before I was down last week. Got to 196.6 as of Friday morning.

Total Loss: 40.4 lbs in 20 weeks. 31.6 lbs to go for final goal weight.

I never talked about my next mini-goal after it took me more than 2 months to accomplish the last one. Mini-goal #4 is to lose 16 more lbs which would bring me to 183. My original goal date for this was October 31st. Aaah I was so naive and optimistic. Let's now just say I hope I get there before my thyroid surgery (Dec. 3rd) but if not I'll be happy with whatever I can lose between now and then. November is going to be challenging for me to stay on track with some things that I have coming up but I will do my best.

This week's schedule:

  • Monday: Spin
  • Tuesday: Run and weights
  • Wednesday: Zumba
  • Thursday: TurboKick
  • Friday: Personal Trainer
  • Saturday: Videos - probably a cardio and my strength one
  • Sunday: Rest day

Sunday, October 25, 2015

Run for Your Life 5k

So my initial hope for this race was to get done in under 33 minutes. But I didn't put the running time into my training. Then when I did,I couldn't do much more than 5 minutes at a time before wanting to crash. I've had issues this past week with my heart rate accelerating quickly and it's annoying.

Anyway, I went to the race today with no real hopes beyond hoping to be faster than the 37 minutes that I had for the last 5k.

It was supposed to be rainy but thankfully it was just overcast and chilly for the whole race. I first wondered if I should have worn long sleeves instead of capris and a t-shirt (it was in the 50's). But I knew I would warm up once I got going so I didn't worry too much about that. In fact, once I was 2 miles in I wished I had worn a tank top and shorts. Of course I was freezing at the end once my shirt was all sweaty and I was too lazy to walk to my car to get my jacket.

I ran for about 3 minutes before I felt out of breath. I thought it was a bad sign but I just tried to slow down and get through it. The initial rush of people passing me was over about half a mile in and then I started catching up to others who had started off too fast. I stayed about dead middle for the whole race (there were a good number of walkers). I made it to mile one at about 10:25.

Mile two was more closer to an 11 minute mile and then I took a one minute walking break. I had one more 1 minute walking break before mile three and actually made it to mile 3 before the 33 minute mark so that wasn't too bad. 

Then I thought I had the burst of energy to get through the last .12 mile but started to feel almost woozy about half way through that. I just kept on trucking and finished. 

So it wasn't as good as I initially hoped but much better than I expected. I didn't win any door prizes but did get some decent give aways.

All the same I think I'm cutting my runs down to two miles from here until January.

Friday, October 23, 2015

Here piggy piggy

Well, this morning (Friday) I was down to 196.6 which means I've passed the 40 lbs lost mark.

Then this afternoon we had BBQ and wings from Slick Pig.

40 pounds regained. No regrets.

Pay off

Motivation is helped when you actually see your actions pay off.

Thursday morning's weigh in: 197.6

This is actually how I look in Zumba...
After my personal training session I weighed myself again on the gym scale and it was 198.6 (fully clothed and with shoes on). So this puts me in a better mental place than where I was last week. However, just the day before (Wednesday) I looked at an uncooperative scale and said out loud, "weight loss is stupid." So I try to remember that it's not all about the number.

The meal plan is going well. I'm going to save the flank steak (which turned into flat iron steak once I compared prices) since I have loads of leftovers in the fridge that need to be eaten. So far, so good on the candy front but it hasn't been easy.

I did an interval run on Wednesday. I used the C210K app and went back to week 5 day 1 - 5 minutes running and 3 minutes walking (repeat 3 times). The 5 minutes about killed me. I don't know what is up with my running endurance right now. But I'm not going to dwell on it - if I'm slow then so be it.

Got my stitches out which was a relief and at first the thumb was looking good but by the evening the skin flap was flapping so I'll still be in a bandage for several more days. Stupid vegetable slicer...

Thursday, October 22, 2015

"The Race with a Drinking Problem"

A friend put this on my radar the other day and I think it would be fun to do it:

The Wicked Wine Run 5k/1k - April 30th, 2016

According to their website they set it up as a regular 5k trail run with wine at the end and/or then a 1k walk around 4 wine tasting stations. The cost to do both is $45 if you register before Jan. 20th. Obviously this would be like any other fun run in that it wouldn't be for the "time" but rather a social event.

But I like wine and I like fun runs that don't involve mud or colored powder being hurled at you so I think this will go on the 2016 race list. Even if I do have to call it a "race".

Wednesday, October 21, 2015

Clearance pants failure

I had this morning off from work (typed on Tuesday) since I had to take the kids to the dentist. I tried to make good use of some extra time to get a run in before that appointment. It's been pretty chilly here in the mornings and I was looking to wear my running pants rather than capris. I found a pair of pants I got off a clearance rack a few months ago. They were an XL which means they fit my thighs fine but were way too big on my waist - the joy of being pear shaped.

I remembered that I had issues with these falling off my hips the couple of times I wore them previously but thought I could get through a run. Nope. Flashing people all over my neighborhood. Hope they liked my pink granny panties.

So with stopping to pull up my pants every 5 steps and just not feeling very energetic overall I didn't get much of a run in. I ended up doing 1.8 miles in 27 minutes. Awesome sauce! (she types sarcastically) This bodes well for Sunday's 5k.

I just didn't have it in me this morning. Of course I made it easier on myself by saying I could get in extra cardio at the end of the day - but that won't actually happen. I then tried to get in some strength training with a video workout but only had time for about 1/2 of it and really struggled through that half. Still - at least I did get exercise in today and if I stay on track with my planned calories it will be ok.

Tuesday, October 20, 2015

On my grocery list

I've slacked a bit in meal planning which always leads to bad dietary choices. There isn't a magic formula for losing weight but it does take some planning.

I spent some time Monday morning making a meal plan and grocery list. While I haven't done the data on each day it should keep me in the 1200-1500 calorie range. Monday, for example, is around 1250-1300. The bottom row is for snacks - I usually have a morning and afternoon snack and when I'm at work it's always the same: Celery and Hummus and Cottage Cheese. I love, love, LOVE the celery and hummus. It's a highlight of my morning. Yes, I am that sad and pathetic..

The lamb/pita/hummus dish on Monday is leftovers from Sunday's dinner. Overall it's a pretty healthy dish since the lamb was done in the crockpot with crushed tomatoes, chick peas, eggplant, onions, and spices. I meant to put potatoes in it but forgot. It would have been better if I seared the lamb before putting it in the crock pot but I didn't have time for that on Sunday morning when I made it.

I picked up some pitas that I used to get all the time during our time in Connecticut. I plan to get more because they are great on the calorie/carb/fiber scale.

Now it's just a matter of avoiding the candy drawers/bowls in our office.

Monday, October 19, 2015

"I do not need a donut" - repeat often, as needed.

Willpower, willpower - were art thou willpower?

This has been a very long morning already and I'm only 1.5 hours into work. I've decided I have to go cold turkey for a couple weeks again with the sugar stuff. There is no middle ground right now apparently.

I only had two exercise days last week. Two. And I have to push myself to do it this week. I'm really scared of this current place of feeling so blasé about the whole thing. This is where I could fall off the wagon.

So exercise plans for this week:

  • Monday - Spin
  • Tuesday - Personal Trainer or morning run and video (plans are still being finalized)
  • Wednesday -TBD
  • Thursday - Personal Trainer or TurboKick (plans are still being finalized)
  • Friday - Spin
  • Saturday - Zumba
  • Sunday - Run for Your Life 5k
I will do something on Wednesday but I'm not sure what I'll be able to fit in. It might just be a video at home that night.  My lunch will be taken that day as I go to get the stitches out of Frankenthumb. I'll be glad to be done with those though I think I'll still need to cover it for another week or so.

Diet wise - no more candy or cookies or extra carbs for the week. Sigh - diets are boring.

Friday, October 16, 2015

My skirt weighs 0.8 pounds

Three(ish) months ago I had my annual physical with my doctor (required by insurance but something that I would have done anyway). I talked about it here.

At that appointment I weighed in at 223, which was 14 pounds lighter than I had been a month earlier so while not thrilled with that weight I was happy with what I had achieved so far.

Because I lost weight so rapidly in those first couple of months I had really hoped to be in the 180's by the time I saw him again for an accountability appointment regarding my weight loss (my suggestion to schedule it). I didn't anticipate getting stuck in the low 200's for so long.

As I already posted, I had made it under 200 last week but with less exercise this week and a crappy diet I've crept up a pound or two again so today I weighed in at 202 something but they recorded 201 (they take off a pound or so for clothes/shoes). I did however, weigh myself in two different outfits this morning and picked the lighter skirt of the two... Vanity - ugh.

So in my head I'm like: "Crap! Still in the 200's. I'm a failure!!!"

My doctor is far more positive. He was like: "WOW! 22 pounds in 3 months that's fantastic!" Whatever BMI scale he uses puts me in the 29 range so I'm still out of the obese category which in the end is what I was aiming for. I'm really trying to keep my head in the same positive space that he's in but it's a struggle.

Because I'm really struggling with finding motivation right now. Not so much with exercise - even though this week I've been not as enthused about exercising and barely made it to my personal trainer session today - I'm not really worried about that, I'm just in a "everything is blah" hormonal place this week. I know myself well enough to not judge my whole future on how I feel in a bad hormonal place.

But I am back to mindless eating of crap and sugar and I know while I'm doing it that it's not accomplishing what I think it will accomplish but I can't make myself stop. It's probably also hormone related so I hope to snap out of it within the next few days.

It will be beautiful this weekend so I'm going to get some outdoor runs in - even if they turn into run/walks. And I have to decide if I'm going to do a costume for the 5k next weekend. Decisions, decisions...

Thursday, October 15, 2015

Bubba-Gump Pumpkin Spice

Nothing too exciting to blog about - just random thoughts...

Such as:

  • I don't recommend eating a Spicy Black Bean Gardenburger right before working out. Gastric unpleasantness will abound.
  • If you've taken several days off of exercising you probably shouldn't jump into using 10-lb hand weights while doing the exercise mentioned above.
  • Use the time while you're collapsed on the floor, wondering if you're going to hurl because of that stupid black bean burger, to remind yourself that you do actually like to exercise.
  • I'm thankful for wi-fi coverage that allows me to stream a video while using the elliptical which is otherwise mind-numbingly boring.
  • It's hard to put on a bra, put on deodorant, and shave when only one of your thumbs is functional (especially when  it's the thumb on your dominant hand).
  • I'm completely addicted to Pumpkin Spice creamer. And it's not diet friendly - but I don't care.

Tuesday, October 13, 2015

Obligatory Weekly Results

Another good few days during the weekdays but crashing on the weekend. I haven't even weighed myself yet for this week as I know I'm probably right back at 200 or 201.


Here's what I did:
  • Monday: 1 mile run and Spin
  • Tuesday: Personal Trainer
  • Wednesday: Spin and Zumba
  • Thursday: TurboKick
  • Friday: 4 mile run/walk, weights, and spin
  • Saturday: No "exercise" but a lot of yard work that burned calories.
  • Sunday: Nothing.
My body was done on Saturday - I had planned to do Zumba that morning but I had several different physical indicators that I needed a rest day. I had tried to run a 5k distance outside on Friday but only got a mile in because my legs were just exhausted. The first mile was done in about 10:20 though.  The rest of it was walk/run.

Sunday night I tried to slice off the tip of my thumb while using my mandoline (vegetable slicer). It required a trip to the ER and 4 stitches.

I approve of this coffee.
It could have been worse and now I call it "Frankenthumb" and chase my children around saying that Frankenthumb wants to eat their brains. 

Besides the traumatic thumb injury and dealing with the insurance aftermath of a hit and run (on one of our parked cars) I enjoyed a couple days off of work and am now ready to tackle yet another week. 

Tentative Schedule
  • Monday - I was lazy and took another rest day. Thumb recovery and all that...
  • Tuesday - I'll try to get a walk in, no promises...
  • Wednesday - Spin
  • Thursday - TurboKick
  • Friday - Personal Trainer
  • Saturday - Zumba
  • Sunday - Run, weights, and swim

Thursday, October 8, 2015

Merely overweight

The 199 on the scale has been a long time in coming. I haven't been under 200 since late 2011. I remember being in the 190's when I did the triathlon in September 2011 and I know I crept up on the scale after that but I don't know when exactly I passed the 200 mark. I do remember that I was above 210 by February of 2012.

Back in 2006 when I first got under 200 - really for the first time since I was 17 or 18 - I swore I would never let it get back over 200 again. Of course I had a second child in 2007 and hung on to that baby weight for a while but it did go down once I started exercising again. From 2012 to 2014 there just wasn't any regular exercising going on at all.

The key for me is exercising. Diet is important, of course, but I can maintain my weight or at least keep the gains minimal if I'm also exercising. And the thing is, I'm strong. I might not be able to keep up for long with a high intensity cardio or a fast run but I am strong. I can do higher weights than my trainer right now and I can definitely keep up with any of my peers in the exercise classes that I take.

So often I feel my inadequacy rather than my strengths. So today is a day to remember my strengths.

199 brings me to a new category on the BMI scale - overweight instead of obese. I know BMI can be argued against because it doesn't factor in our different body types and muscle percentage. I use it just as one of my tools in measuring my overall health. But the fact is that this type of scale is used and being "obese" even if I don't look like it or am exercising regularly still counts against me on my health insurance and every other type of assessment tool.

For my height I would have to be 168 before being in the "normal weight" category. It is an eventual goal but I think once I get into the 180's my focus will be on body fat percentages rather than weight. I don't plan on going crazy with muscle building but I do like defined arms, legs, and abs and my clothes size flatters my vanity more than the weight on the scale.

Last week I had the chance to do some shopping. I had been waiting to shop because I didn't want to buy useless in-between sizes. But I really needed some more shirts for work as everything was feeling too big and flowy - that's what I wanted 6 months ago but no longer. I had a couple hours to kill with no one waiting on me so I took my time to explore all the sections of Macy's and to try on several different items. I found a dress I really loved in a size 10 and it fit - probably didn't look as good as it will after another 10-15 lbs are lost but it did fit. All the other size 12's fit and I even got a medium shirt. I ended up not getting the dress because I couldn't justify the need/cost for it when there were several other items I would wear on a weekly basis for work but it was fun to shop and try on clothes.

Also, remember a few weeks ago when I said I tried on my size 12 jeans and while they could be buttoned they weren't comfortable? They now feel great.

So even though the scale progress has been slow over the past few weeks there is progress being made. And I'm happy with where I'm at in this moment.

Wednesday, October 7, 2015

At last

Here's a pleasant surprise from this morning... One-derland!!!!

Tuesday, October 6, 2015

An extra coffee type of week

While the stress and amount of work I deal with has gone down this week I'm still trying to recover on the energy side. Yesterday (Monday) was a bit like trying to crawl through molasses - or at least how I imagine something like that would be (having never actually crawled through molasses).

I remembered my vitamins (also lacking in my diet recently) and got some extra coffee. The first student I met with probably thought I was losing my mind, or an idiot, because it was so hard to focus on what she was saying and what I needed to say back to her. It got better as the day went on but it was still just a low energy day.

Still I made it to exercise during lunch. I got there a few minutes before spin class began so I jumped on the treadmill for a quick run. I was able to get a mile done with 3/4 of it at a 10:00 min/pace and the last 1/4 at a 8:34 min/pace. With the wee bit of walking at the beginning just as the treadmill came up to speed I got the mile done in less than 10 minutes which was nice. I didn't feel too awful doing it - definitely tired at the end but not dying. Spin made me want to die afterwards as she was in love with seated climbs for that session (and I got a weird bike that was either too light or too heavy on the resistance).

Diet was on track. I had a couple of indulgences but they were ok in the overall scheme - sure better choices could be made but it's all about balance right? Or at least that's what people say. Weight came down a little just from one day of being good so I should be back to where I was before the weekend binge pretty soon.

Couple of other changes, I'll end up meeting with my personal trainer today (Tuesday) so TurboKick is moved to Thursday. And my rest day will be changed to Sunday as the gym will be closed for the weekend. I only have 2.5 weeks until that 5k I signed up for so I want to get a couple of outside runs but for now a better time is definitely possible.

Monday, October 5, 2015

Man Overboard! Or just the Weekly Recap

It wasn't a stellar end to the week but I started off pretty well. Last week was the last of my current "super stressful, incredibly busy, please just shoot me now" weeks of this semester. Once I got to Saturday afternoon my body just shut down on me. So I ended up with a couple of extra rest days and too much eating on the weekend but I don't care - sometimes you just have to say "I'll try again tomorrow because I just want to stay in my bed today."


  • Monday: Spin
  • Tuesday: I was going to walk but it was really rainy. This was an active day though so it's not really a rest day but it's not quite enough to track as actual exercise.
  • Wednesday: Hotel gym elliptical, mile run, and weights
  • Thursday: Personal Trainer workout - weights and abs. I did a little cardio on my own as warm up.
  • Friday: Elliptical
  • Saturday/Sunday: Extra rest days. 
Diet/Weight Loss Results
No weight loss for my Monday weigh-in but that was because I ate too much on Sunday and actually had a weight gain. But as of Saturday morning I was still at 200.6. The extra I ate on Sunday should even itself out over the week as I get back on track. Overall my diet wasn't great this past week because of all the travel and catered meals I had. But I didn't overdo it until the weekend when I was just too tired to care. I also started getting sick which along with the stress and exhaustion put its toll on my body and motivation.

A Brand New Week
But the good news is that last weekend is all in the past now and I shall "let it go" as my favorite Disney philosopher states. My trainer wants to see my food log so that should help me get over my snacking indulgences and rationalizations. My doctor weighs me in next week (this was part of my accountability measures) and I really want to be under 200 so my chart no longer says obese. So I have some definite, definable goals. Here is my plan for now but I already know that my Thursday session needs to be rescheduled so that will probably mean an adjustment to one of the other days listed. But for now...
  • Monday: Spin
  • Tuesday: TurboKick
  • Wednesday: Rest?
  • Thursday: Personal Trainer
  • Friday: long outside run and weights
  • Saturday: Zumba
  • Sunday: Elliptical/Weights/Swim